I wish there was one word to describe all of the emotion I feel towards you and how I have to fight to not let it consume me.
he may be in the middle of Milwaukee, at a Primus concert, with a group of his friends… but he still takes the time to send me a text that says, “as excited as I am about this show, I wish you were with me right now more than anything.”
And this is why I’m going to Illinois for my birthday.
I’m going to Chicago to see Mark in 49 days.
Forgiveness.
His face > all other faces.
I don’t know what to do with all this happy.
Passionate, sweet, outspoken, elegant.
Sounds accurate.
I think I’m falling in love with him.
I may have a tiiiny bit of an addiction.
One should not venture into world market to browse when you are craving random goodies. The new Orleans chili bar is for Mark though… I swear!
Him: “I’m sorry, I’m rambling… I talk a lot”
Me: “it’s not rambling if I’m genuinely interested in what you’re saying. I haven’t been bored once. I don’t think you realize how absolutely fascinating you are or that I love the way your mind works.”
Him: “really? Wow. I don’t know why you’re so good to me, but thank you. It’s nice being able to have a conversation with someone for once.”
Kathrine’s Haunted Door
It would be so easy to just go buy a pack of cigarettes today. My main motivation for quitting was the financial aspect of it. I have had zero dollars to my name for the past week and a half, because I was financially irresponsible when I was in Vegas.
But today is pay day, and day 4 of not smoking. I feel like I’m doing really well. I’m a little on edge but after today I doubt I will be. They say after 3-4 days the nicotine is out of your system and your cravings will subside within days of that.
Cold turkey is not easy. But it’s also not that hard.
This guy
It’s been 23 hours since I lit my last cigarette. Cold turkey makes me pissy.